only help my unbelief

October 30, 2008, 5:21 pm
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The last few days have really shaken me spiritually and emotionally.

On Monday morning, a young lady from my church was in a car wreck. By the grace of God, she survived, even though she was ejected from the car. Three days later, she’s progressed very well, although it will be a long road to recovery.

She’s supposed to be married in December, but she could be in the hospital for months.

As her family (she has one older sister) gathered around her, more problems. Her older sister was hospitalized today for some GI problems. How much more difficult can it become for this family?

I know the Lord is sovereign. I don’t know her family very well personally, but I’ve seen their love for the Lord at church, and I know that He has them in the palm of His hand.

And it has humbled me this week. At the gym Tuesday night I was doing some free weights, and as I looked in the mirror, I wasn’t too pleased with what I saw. But instantly the Lord turned my thoughts to Ann Forrest. I bet she – and her family and fiance – would give anything just to be able to stand up. And here, I’m upset that I’m not as skinny as I wish I were.

There have been some difficult circumstances at home, but are they as difficult as what Ann Forrest’s family is going through?

I’m not pretending like my struggles don’t exist, but rather, I’m thankful for the reminder this week that God is bigger than any circumstance that seems so formidable, and He’s got li’l old me in His hands, too.


No fitness, but lots of links
August 29, 2008, 2:25 pm
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Well, as I said at the beginning of the week, I wasn’t promising much in the way of posts. This week has been busy with babysitting, job hunting and one pretty fun Carolina football game that I wasn’t expecting to get to go to.

In two hours or so I’ll be heading up to Tennessee with Christian for Labor Day. We’re excited to get to spend time with his mom and stepdad and with all his friends from school and church.

I have a lot of posts in the works, but for today, I’m going to point you to some stuff from around the web that I’ve found really, really interesting.

* McCain announced his VP pick today – Sarah Palin, governor of Alaska. Back in April, before she was on any radar whatsoever, Al Mohler wrote a post about her son, Trig, who they chose to have even though they knew he had Down’s syndrome. It’s a compelling story that flies in the face of everyone who not only believes in abortion, but those who believe in selective abortion.

* The Boundless blog is running a series of posts by David Powlison about mental disorders and medication. Read part 1, part 2 and part 3, then read a clarification Powlison wrote today. I really appreciate this series, because two years ago I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression and the remedy most people recommended was just to take medicine. It was a decision I struggled with for a long time. I think it’s important for every Christian to read posts like these in order to love and serve their brothers and sisters in Christ better.

* Finally, if you haven’t read it yet, check out Donald Miller’s opening prayer at the Democratic National Convention earlier this week. I’d be interested to know what you think.

I hope you all have a wonderful weekend, a blessed Lord’s day, and a relaxing Labor Day. I’ll see you Tuesday!

Do I need to live?
April 14, 2008, 1:04 am
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A few weeks ago while running I was listening to the song “All My Tears,” originally by Emmy Lou Harris, but covered by Jars of Clay on their most recent album “Good Monsters.” I was struck by the lyrics:

When I go, don’t cry for me;
In my Father’s arms I’ll be.
The wounds this world left on my soul
Will all be healed, and I’ll be whole.
Sun and moon will be replaced
With the light of Jesus’ face,
And I will not be ashamed,
For my Savior knows my name.

It don’t matter where you bury me;
I’ll be home, and I’ll be free
It don’t matter where I lay:
All my tears will be washed away.

I’ve been thinking about those lyrics a lot, about not being afraid to die. And then this morning, my pastor preached on Colossians 2:8:

See to it that no one takes you captive through philosophy and empty deception, according to the tradition of men, according to the elementary principles of the world, rather than according to Christ.

He went through some of the “traditions of men” that keep us from sanctification, and then he started talking about the elementary principles of the world. “Elementary” is the Greek word that connotes the basics, the ABCs, he said, and so in that verse God is referring to the things the world automatically assumes is right and true.

One of the elementary principles he mentioned was only having as many children as you think you can afford. He said that one of the primary reason for having only 2.5 children is economic, and, ultimately, selfish. That’s a topic for another day and another post, but the principle that hit me the most this morning was the following:

I have to live.

The world says living is the most important thing. You should step on people, manipulate and take advantage if it keeps you alive and improves your quality of life. But we don’t have to live our lives in such a way that our desire to live is first and foremost. In fact, we should live as though we are prepared to die at any moment.

I don’t live like that. I fear the opinions of men, even though on their worst days they wouldn’t kill me for the things I do or say that resemble Christ. And so I know that if the threat were death, apart from God I would never be able to act in such a way that might get me killed.

And so my prayer for this week is to not be taken captive by the principle that I have to live. I want to give up the whole world and gain my soul, that I might be more like Christ.

Don’t forget to taste and see that the Lord is good.